Wednesday, February 8

The Other First - **Guest Blogger**


**a piece submitted to @controvershiL, enjoy**

It was 3 in the morning on a humid, summer night. I was sitting in a yellow cab across from this gorgeous, confident black woman with a glowing face, wearing a gold sequined dress revealing her long thin and playful legs, no purse, no past. She leaned toward me and threw her left leg across my lap. She was wearing matching flats. She spoke in a casual voice as if we were chatting it up in a café.

“You seem nervous. Have you been with another woman before?”

My first thought.

‘How the hell did I get here? I must be the luckiest bi-curious girl on earth, because I just landed the hottest girl in the bar.’

Earlier that night, I was hanging out with my surfing buddies when one of them, a dude who I was chasing, tried to branch out and hit on this girl at the bar. From out of nothing, I grew this confidence, and drew from my lips the most badass lines that made her abandon her drink and follow me home. Of course I don’t remember any of it.

Now back in the cab, the sobriety found it’s way back quickly, stripping me of all certainty of anything. Yeah, I’m nervous, but I couldn’t lose my chance of embracing her slip away by being my babbling self.

“Yeah I have, I just don’t believe in PDA.”

Back at my apartment, she retreated to the bathroom and came out naked asking for a towel. I handed her one, but not before squeezing her breasts first. They were much firmer than mine. She showered and I grew bored and tired. It was fucking 3 in the morning. Every few minutes, I took a piece of clothing off while reading a magazine and by the time I was in my panties, she finally emerged.

We lay naked for a while, talking, and I realized her stories contradicted the ones from before. I threw myself on top of her and we made out for a while. Her kisses were slow and in rhythm with mine, something every guy I had been with needed training to accomplish. I reached down to prepare my self-proclaimed signature finger-fucking moves, and she stopped me.

She took charge and rotated us until she was on top and her tongue went straight to my clit. Shaking, jittering, quivering in complete pleasurable agony, I felt the obligation to hold her free hand when I remembered, to let her know that I acknowledged her being responsible for my euphoric state, which she couldn’t possibly have shared. We weren’t fucking each other, together. When there’s oral involved, there’s sacrifice, and the unspoken promise that the eaten will soon eat. We kissed some more, and I knew it was time for me to give her the mind-blowing time I think I promised her at the bar. My trigger fingers reached down, and I was preparing to motion her to come here like a speed-laden metronome until she did.

“No penetration.” She corrected me by pushing my hand away. What? I was shocked by this revealed truth that all girls were different—that the move that gets me to the moon in seconds is shunned away by someone else.

So I went down and tried not to let her know that I had never seen a black pussy before. There was no pink plushy insides—just a monochromatic throbbing, oozy black pussy ready to release…I engorged myself in her world, starting slow, finding my footing until I clicked in and sought patterns within patterns as the metronome ticked faster. She breathed heavier and let out a moan. A fucking fake moan. Of course I recognized it. I’ve done it so many times with the guys I’ve dated. It was the primary reason I decided to start hitting on girls.

“That was…great.” Fucking liar. She threw her head back on the couch and in a moment’s time, she was out cold. I retreated to my bedroom, and the next thing I knew, I was awoken by a stir in the living room. I cracked the door open enough to see a pair of feet stumble out the door when it shut.

Still half asleep, I texted my friend, “dude, I brought a girl home last night. I told you I was bi. You owe me dinner.”

Late into the next morning, I woke up again. Did this really happen? Was I dreaming? I walked into the living room. A pair of gold-sequined flats, size 11, had been left behind. The girl, who arrived in almost nothing had left barefoot en route to Brooklyn.

The beginning.

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